I'm an Optimist and I’m a Pessimist

I'm an optimist and I’m a pessimist. Sometimes, even the impossible looks possible, sometimes even an easy possibility looks impossible. When things go my way, the whole world seems conquerable. The sky looks like it is cheering for me. Suddenly, everything seems alright and the confidence level goes sky high. Positive attitude rules the mind. I feel like a warrior who can fight against all odds and win. Nothing seems impossible.

When I come to terms with the harsh realities of life and go through a painful phase, the same world seems too good for me. Suddenly, the sky seems to be getting dark. Everything seems like a never ending nightmare and negative attitude ceases to disappear. Hopelessness and confusion prevails. I feel like a thirsty boy who needs water but can’t seem to get it. Everything seems impossible.

How I wish I would remain an optimist all my life. How I wish I could be a stoical person. How I wish I could remain confident all the time and never lose myself when faced with a huge problem. How I wish I could always see opportunity in adversity and always have the courage to fight all the difficulties I face.

I try to be optimistic .I try hard to fight with determination. But sometimes, I fall into that hole of helplessness and trivialize myself. I guess it’s just human to fall back upon that line of negativity and is beyond my control.

I try. I keep trying to be positive. I keep trying to achieve what I couldn’t in the past. I gather courage and determination to fight against all odds. I’m trying my best. I know I will feel invincible someday and never look back.
Though, for now, I’m an optimist and I’m a pessimist.